Crack. Me. Up.

Something inspired me to go back to the beginning of my blogging life and I realized I really missed it. I loved reading about how I felt regarding certain topics and issues. A sort of online journal. With my life in a completely different place it's refreshing to read how I felt about things. Makes me excited to find that again.

Plus...

I posted pictures and videos and stuff. Some I watched again for the first time and they cracked me up.

Life is too short to waste time being sad, angry or bitter. Although we can't always control how we feel, I need to remember I said that.

So....

I plan on being back! Somehow I need this.

Newness

Still getting used to being on my own. It's been nice rediscovering myself.

"Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers."

How true!

Unlove

Break ups indeed are hard. I think the part I'm most looking forward to is making new memories.

New adventures to come...

In case you have extra change

I'm no longer in the habit of blogging however, I read this story and thought that those out there that still read my blog and have a larger following can post this too and perhaps more people can help. It's an amazing story and such a worthy cause.

Little girl's mission

Donation site

I Ponder Endlessly

I was on Facebook catching up with friends when I linked over to my friend's new blog. I am so excited and proud that she has decided to tackle the giant task of training for a marathon. What I'm most impressed with is that she by no means is your "marathon usual" person. She, like so many of us, is not in the best physical shape. And somehow I believe she will do exactly what she sets out to do.

And so now I am lost in thought at how hard it is for me to get motivated in losing weight. I know that for those of you that have read my blog for a while you know how I've tried over,and over to beat the obesity demon but just can't. And so I asked myself what is the difference between those that succeed and those that do not? What did they do that the others did not? I know for me I've realized that I make justifications excuses that lead to my failure. Everything from how expensive eating healthy is to lack of support. Oh and not to mention that being a teacher doesn't help. Often we are "buttered" up with sweets and mountains of sugary, sweet things.

And to be honest, I'm not sure what my purpose in writing this post was. Was it for input? Was it to just put down on paper, err on the internet, a more solid plan? Or was it just to clear my head? In the end, I think God will unveil his plan for me. Yet as I'm about ready to to publish this post I've had one last thought. I know that I can be healthier, and I know that I want to live longer, but is it also possible that I am happy exactly the way I am? And maybe, just maybe that was God's plan all along.

Dear God,
I know that I've had many such conversations with you about what my place is in this world. I wonder if I'm really doing what you set out for me to do. And now I'm adding one more question. In a world where most people are so health conscious, is it possible to just be happy even though I know I am unhealthy? Is that part of your plan too?
Terribly confused,
Patty

Note: I'm sorry to those who may be offended that I just publicly posted my letter to God.