It just occurred to me that I've been using Twitter and Facebook as a blog. Why do that when I have an actual blog? I've enjoyed going back and reading previous posts so I really need to make an effort to post more often. Even if it's just for me. 

It's been two months since my last post. I have to say that I am feeling so much better. Do I have bad days? Of course. I miss Matt. But for the most part, I'm doing pretty darn good. I've managed to keep myself busy and that has been a life-saver. 

What has kept me so busy you ask? Being a teacher and arts and crafts. I've thrown myself into my work trying to be a better teacher. And I think my class really benefited from this. We are as close as a teacher and class can be. 18 peas in a pod (17 kids and me). Then my re-commitment to crafting. It makes me so happy so why not do it more consistently?

It's not a bad thing either that I'm extremely focused on the Spurs and their NBA Playoffs efforts. GO SPURS GO. I noticed my mood wasn't as pleasant since they were resting for over a week waiting for their next opponent. Yes, sports affects me that much. It's a great feeling actually.

As to the current status of my empty room...well today my BIL brought an old exercise bike for me. It's actually the one my parents had when I was growing up. It's made its rounds to various homes and now came to live with me. Hopefully, I can start slowly and get healthy. For reals this time. "Slow and steady wins the race", right?

As I end my post I want to wish all the mamas the Happiest of Mother's Days. And someone tweeted that for mothers struggling with infertility it's the hardest day of the year. So a prayer to all the mamas to be and women hoping to be mamas. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Til next time! Happy upcoming week to all!!!!

Tough Enough

For some odd reason today was a very hard day for me. Missed the ex a lot. I've pretty much gotten used to being on my own. It's just on occasion, like today, that I miss his presence. Back to school tomorrow. That means I'll be back on schedule and back to my routine. Tomorrow...will be better.

Spare Room

I'm currently trying to figure out what to do with the spare room I have. I already have my master bedroom, a guest bedroom and a craft room/office. I know, a lot of space for a single gal. Keep in mind that it used to be ex-bf's office. So now I want to make it all mine for whatever I want.

Current ideas:

• Reading area/Library
• Exercise room
• Split office/craft room

That's it! :( Not sure what else I can do with it. I'm leaning towards a combo reading nook/library/exercise room. Just play music while I exercise or read. NO TV or internet what so ever allowed! Sometimes I think that's why I don't do more reading.

Better start saving that money to buy my exercise machine ;)

The Oscars

Today are the Academy Awards. I didn't watch any of the Best Picture movies so I don't feel very invested. BUT, I love award shows so I am going to watch anyway. Party anyone?

Crack. Me. Up.

Something inspired me to go back to the beginning of my blogging life and I realized I really missed it. I loved reading about how I felt regarding certain topics and issues. A sort of online journal. With my life in a completely different place it's refreshing to read how I felt about things. Makes me excited to find that again.

Plus...

I posted pictures and videos and stuff. Some I watched again for the first time and they cracked me up.

Life is too short to waste time being sad, angry or bitter. Although we can't always control how we feel, I need to remember I said that.

So....

I plan on being back! Somehow I need this.

Newness

Still getting used to being on my own. It's been nice rediscovering myself.

"Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers."

How true!

Unlove

Break ups indeed are hard. I think the part I'm most looking forward to is making new memories.

New adventures to come...

Up Late

Sometimes I feel I have so many thoughts going on in my head that I should write them down just so I can go back to them at a later time. I'm thinking a blog is not the place for meaningless thoughts, but hey, why not?!

More to come...

Now, I'm sleepy.

In case you have extra change

I'm no longer in the habit of blogging however, I read this story and thought that those out there that still read my blog and have a larger following can post this too and perhaps more people can help. It's an amazing story and such a worthy cause.

Little girl's mission

Donation site

Amazing

I just witnessed an amazing act of kindness. Funny how full my heart felt. God is amazing and works in such mysterious ways! Such a happy moment.

Teacher support

I saw this a few weeks ago on The Daily Show with Jon Stewart. Thought it was thought provoking.

The Daily Show - Crisis in Dairyland - Apocalypse Cow
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Winter? 2.0

It is the first day of winter and we turned on the A/C again because it was too hot. Winter? Where are you?

Winter?

We finally turned our heater on. I would consider that winter. :) I know, I know. Not officially. I love this time of the year. It feels very much like home to me. And not to forget the smells this time of year.

Itch

I've had an itch to blog again but with my hectic schedule lately I don't know if I can manage. Perhaps I can start slowly. Three sentences isn't bad.

Hello Again

The most amazing thing has just happened to me. I'm not really sure why I feel compelled to write a post about this especially since the few followers I had don't read this blog anymore. Which, let's be honest, is completely my fault. I suppose I'm compelled to write this down so I can remember this feeling for as long as I can and access it whenever I want.

I was having dinner with one of my co-workers. She's a ton of fun and I can't wait to do it again. (Thanks Maria!!!!) Let me say that it must've been fate or something that I even answered my phone. If I don't know the number I usually let it go to voice mail. See, back in 2006 I moved home from San Antonio. I currently still have my SA number. When I get a call from an unknown SA number I assume it's the wrong number. Yet, this time I answered. One, because one of my students this year moved to SA earlier this year and I thought there was a chance it was his family. Two, I answered because "something" made me. The voice on the other line came from someone much older than my student. (I teach second grade :)) He asked if I knew who it was and of course I didn't. He went on to say that it was D, a student that I had 7 years ago in fifth grade while I taught in San Antonio. As stated in the post that I linked to this one, D left a lasting impression in my life.

Naturally, as educators we aspire to inspire everyone of our students. But not often does the student inspire us. I was lucky enough to have had this happen my second year of teaching. I kept in touch with D for the rest of my time in SA. Taking him to movies and dinner. He even helped me move into my last apartment. I was his unofficial "Big Brother". As D got older, he needed me less and less, and found other great and positive teachers that helped him. Finally, I moved home and D and I kept in touch through an occasional email here and there.

I have to admit that when I realized it was D I internally cheered like a little girl. Here was this student that had changed me and my teaching 7 years ago. He went on to mention that he was graduating this year. He told me all about school, picking a college, his girlfriend and family. And then it happened...that amazing moment. He finally said what he had wanted to say. His reason for calling. With the help of one of his teachers he tracked down my old co-worker/best friend/"sister" and was able to get my contact information. He said he wanted to send me pictures. Pictures of important events in his life. He also mentioned something I had completely forgotten. He said he had my contact information in a journal I gave him back in fifth grade that he had kept until just recently. (He thinks his girlfriend misplaced it.) But it was what he said next that moved me to tears. Tears that have kept streaming down my face for the last hour and half. He said that he wanted to find that journal because it meant a lot to him. So much that he never wrote in it. All that is written is the page I wrote on where I had dedicated the journal to him. Can you believe that I didn't remember that? But the emotion behind his voice when he said he was sad he couldn't find it made me lose it. I told him how much I appreciated that and how proud of him I was.

There are so many things that I can share about D that will help you all understand how incredible this student was. But in the end, what matters is that I know. And now, you all know a little bit more.

I am just about to end my 10th year of teaching. I've had tough classes, demanding students, and emotionally draining work environments. But to me, all of that is worth the struggle when you hear from a student like D. I can only pray that every teacher have his or her D sometime in their career. It's the most amazing feeling!!!!

My Heart is Happy and Full

This week was my best spring break!!!

I had a "TO DO" list this week. Funny how the contents of this post were not on that to do list. Although I did manage to cross off some of my chores, I am returning to work after spring break with a a happy and full heart.

Not that this past week didn't come with some heartbreaks...Why UTEP? That game was yours for the taking! March Madness is definitely upon us. Yet, this week I managed to open my heart up and let love in. I know what the few that read my blog may be thinking. Um, Patty. Didn't your boyfriend move in back in July? Yes, yes he did. But the person I am resisted him and all that he is for months. And though things have gotten great with time it wasn't until this week that I realized my heart is so happy and so full.

Strange. When I had lunch with my cousin she laughed because Matt shows all the qualities and characteristics that most women swoon over. And here I am, living the fairy tale and not realizing it. I could try to tell you what it is that Matt does for me, but it's somewhat difficult to put into words. The easy stuff: he lets me watch sports while he does the cooking and washing of dishes, he tells me he loves me all the time and means it, not one day goes by he doesn't say how beautiful or cute or sexy I am (which for me is hard to hear sometimes). He's good to my parents and nice to my nieces and nephews. He helps around the house by doing laundry, cleaning, and like I said above the cooking and dishes. And I suppose what made me fall in love with him again was how he didn't give up on me when I wasn't so nice.

This week was my best spring break!!!!

Spent TOO Much Already

Been shopping two days in a row. I've spent too much money. I've eaten way too much. There is a reason it's good to only have breaks once in a while. If you're too busy working then you don't have time to spend money and gain weight!!!! And to think, it's only day two of spring break. Yikes!!! Spending time with my family and boyfriend...priceless. Ha ha, y'all saw that coming.

Of Course

Yup! It was strep throat.

Are You Kidding?

Only I would have a fever Valentine's Day weekend. :( It's my first Valentines with Matt where we actually get to be together. We were long distance last year. Here's hoping I get better.

And wishing you love and happiness this weekend and always!!!!

Super Bowl Action

No, my team didn't make it to the Super Bowl but we're celebrating anyway! So head on over to my house for some yummy food and great company.