Friday, March 20, 2009

Safe and Sound

This post is being written from my very own bed at home. I have to say that this week seemed like one of those dream weeks. Truth be told, I've never experienced one before so I'm assuming this is what a dream week feels like. Unfortunately, on St. Patrick's Day I switched out my purses (I had a green one for St. Paddy's Day) and forgot to put in my camera and carry it around so...again no pictures. I'm a dork.

Obviously the reason I had such a marvelous week was my quality time with Matt. There are no specific reasons why I feel our time was dream-like. What can I say? He's a sweet guy and he treats me well. We had intense and amazing conversations. We were dorks together and laughed a bunch. We got to know each other better. I like what I got to know. He also gave me a tour of Austin, but not the tourist-y tour...the local tour. It was so sweet. To tell y'all the truth, I can't exactly put into words what I feel. But I can say it feels great!

Matt also humored me and my LOVE for cupcakes. I told him about an article I read about Hey Cupcake! We went
first thing on Tuesday (it's closed on Mondays). He even took me back on Thursday before leaving Austin so I could bring some home. Three great days!

Now would be a good time to share a little more about my issues. I've always considered myself a bit of a commitment-phobe. Not really sure why. There is something about having to take someone else into consideration while making a decision that I don't like. I love my independence. But I suppose I had yet to meet someone I wouldn't mind doing that with or for. The other fear is that I haven't exactly ever invested this much into a relationship (hence my commitment issues). I guess I'm afraid of losing it all. The honest truth is that I've always felt that if I didn't invest too much into a guy then I couldn't get too hurt. And now I'm in way deeper than ever and quite frightend. But I'll take each day one at a time and enjoy it. Because right now I am extremely HAPPY and so IN LOVE.

Oh yeah, and San Antonio was a blast too. I went to visit my old school and all my friends there. We had dinner and drinks and laughed our asses off. I'll be back in 3 weeks for a quiceanera. Stay tuned for part two...

10 comments:

Amy said...

Glad you are safe and sound. It sounds like you had a great trip. That was so sweet of Matt to take you to the cupcake place twice. Sounds like he really cares about you. I think you should take things at your own pace. Yeah, it is scary to be with that one person and say yes. But you are careful and do not lose who you are really are because you are in a relationship. I did that once and became a whole different person and my friends saw it and I did not. When it broke off I had to put "Amy" back together. I told myself I would not let anyone take away who I was ever again. My husband who is so sweet was the first person to date me after my mess and putting myself back together. Guess what I got my feet wet, fell in love and never looked back.

Oh I have something waiting for you on my blog.

Patti said...

New cards, come visit.

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Daisigirl said...

Glad to hear you had such a nice time! San Antonio is on my top-ten list of places I still need to see in the great country!

Ryan Ashley Scott said...

Good to hear you had such a great time. Thanks for taking time to do the FFFF all week!

Bonnie said...

Glad you had a great time and are back home safe and sound. There are no guarantees when it comes to relationships, so enjoy it and don't worry about what might happen down the road. Take it one day at a time and live life to the fullest.

Ginger said...

It sounds like you had a great excursion! Glad you had some time to relax and laugh!! Enjoy your time with Matt, no matter what may or may not happen. :)

jewelryandgiftsbyrebecca said...

Glad you're home safe and sound and that you had such a special time on your trip.
Love is amazing and finding someone you love and you are willing to go through the thick and thin with is a very special blessing. Be in the moment and just enjoy where you are; don't hold back and don't worry about what MIGHT happen. Let it BE.

AndreaLeigh said...

sounds like a lovely trip! i'd love to see pictures!

just wanted to remind you my blog has moved to www.mychihuahuabitesblog.com

Angie said...

I am glad to hear that you had a good time. Too bad about no pictures.

Muppet Soul said...

Hi - new.

Love the blog layout!

and PS - you can totally get hurt by not investing in people - it's just a different kind of hurt.